Ilyani Athirah

2012-02-12T10:27:00.000-08:00

I make mistakes every now and then , I know I'm not perfect.Well in fact I know that I'm a completely imperfect. I chose the wrong path. Allah knows what have I done for the past 17 years of my life. I screwed up most of the time. I realized all the mistakes I've done and yes I wont hesitate to admit every each of the mistakes I've made if someone ever point it right on my face. No I wont. Insyaallah. So anyone up for the challenge ?

Fin.

2012-02-08T01:11:00.000-08:00

When you're trying to be nice to someone and that person doesn't accept your kindness

This is what you should do

Beyond Cuteness

2012-02-07T16:44:00.000-08:00

This may be a very boring post to you. Photos of my niece and nephew, Hani and Adam :)

Okay comel kan. Haha. Lack of idea on what to blog about. So here it is, my wordless wednesday :)

Riak

2012-02-01T04:46:00.000-08:00

Found this article, I suggest you should read this too. Quite interesting (:

Riak ialah melakukan sesuatu bukan kerana Allah.

Orang tidak tahu jika kita riak. Kita juga tidak boleh mengatakan orang lain itu riak. Ini adalah kerana riak adalah niat atau perasaan atau tujuan di dalam hati. Niat di hati adalah rahsia Allah yang tidak diketahui oleh sesiapa pun. Tetapi ALLAH maha mengetahui niat dan hasrat di hati kita.

Tetapi walaupun ia rahsia, namun ulama ada mengenal pasti tanda-tanda atau panduan untuk menilai kemungkinan terjadi riak.

1. Rajin beramal jika mendapat pujian atau sanjungan dan malas atau berkurang amal jika mendapat celaan dan kecaman.
2. Rajin beramal apabila bersama-sama dengan orang lain dan malas atau tidak beramal bila bersendirian.
3. Menjauhi larangan Allah jika bersama orang lain dan melanggar larangan-larangan-Nya jika ia sedang sendiri dan jauh dari penglihatan manusia.

Ibadah orang yang riak akan ditolak serta tiada nilai disisi Allah.

Rasulullah SAW. bersabda,"Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan menerima amal kecuali amal yang dilaksanakan dengan ikhlas dan dilakukan semata-mata untuk mengharap redha Allah. (HR Abu Daud dan An-Nasa'i)

Firman Allah, "Maka celakalah bagi orang-orang yang solat,(iaitu) orang-orang yang lalai dari solatnya. Mereka yang mengerjakan kebaikan dengan riak." ( Al Ma'un: 4-6)

Nabi saw. bersabda yang maksudnya: “Sesungguhnya setiap amalan bergantung pada niat dan setiap orang akan mendapat ganjaran sesuai dengan niatnya.” (Hadis sahih riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

Nabi saw. bersabda yang maksudnya: “Sesiapa sum'ah (menceritakan amalnya), maka Allah akan menceritakan aibnya dan sesiapa beramal kerana riak maka Allah akan membuka niatnya di hadapan manusia pada hari kiamat kelak.” (Hadis sahih riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

Abu Hurairah yang berkata, ”Saya mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda, “Sesungguhnya orang yang pertama kali diadili pada hari kiamat adalah orang yang mati syahid di jalan Allah. Dia didatangkan kemudian dinampakkan kepadanya nikmat-nikmat yang diberikan kepadanya maka dia pun mengakuinya. Allah bertanya, “Apa yang kamu lakukan dengannya?” Dia menjawab, “Aku berperang untuk-Mu sampai aku mati syahid.” Allah berfirman, “Engkau dusta, sebenarnya engkau berperang kerana ingin disebut sebagai orang yang berani. Dan itu sudah kau perolehi.” Kemudian Allah memerintahkan malaikat untuk mengheretnya tertelungkup di atas wajahnya lalu dilemparkan ke dalam neraka.
Kemudian seorang yang menuntut ilmu dan mengajarkannya dan juga membaca Al Quran. Dia didatangkan kemudian ditunjukkan kepadanya nikmat-nikmat yang sudah didapatinya dan dia pun mengakuinya. Allah bertanya, “Apakah yang sudah kau perbuat dengannya ?” Maka dia menjawab, “Aku menuntut ilmu, mengajarkannya dan membaca Al Quran kerena-Mu.” Allah berfirman, ”Engkau dusta, sebenarnya engkau menuntut ilmu supaya disebut sebagai orang alim. Engkau membaca Quran supaya disebut sebagai Qari’.” Kemudian Allah memerintahkan malaikat untuk mengheretnya tertelungkup di atas wajahnya lalu dilemparkan ke dalam neraka.
Kemudian ada seseorang yang telah mendapatkan anugerah banyak harta. Dia didatangkan dan ditunjukkan kepadanya nikmat-nikmat yang diperolehnya. Maka dia pun mengakuinya. Allah bertanya, “Apakah yang sudah kamu perbuat dengannya?” Dia menjawab, “Aku telah sedekahkan harta di jalan-Mu dan untuk-Mu.” Allah berfirman, “Engkau dusta, sebenarnya engkau lakukan untuk digelar orang yang dermawan dan engkau sudah memperolehnya.” Kemudian Allah memerintahkan malaikat untuk mengheretnya tertelungkup di atas wajahnya lalu dilemparkan ke dalam neraka.” (HR Muslim)

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Red Velvets

2012-01-29T09:20:00.000-08:00

Sejak menganggur after SPM ni ada banyak sangat masa lapang. So yeah, maka masuklah Ilyani ke dapur. Okay tulis banyak pun takguna. Let's see some pictures :)

Okay meet the batter. Oh lupa, this is Red Velvet sebab tu warna dia merah. It suppose to be way more striking than this one up here. Since I prefer not to use too many food coloring I substitute it with cocoa powder instead. And it does taste a lot more better ! :)

Hehe this somehow a bit funny to me, the paper cups are bigger from the baking cups. So as you can see, paper cups tu macam hodoh sikit. Hee random error :3

Ini cheese cream toppings, super addictive and definitely fattening ye kawan kawan

Piping bags and the couplet

The end product. Penat juga buat, about 3 hours but berbaloi jugalah. Yang cupcakes simpan dekat rumah. And the cake bagi my sister as birthday cake. Saja buat. So yeah. At least buat something yang bermanfaat jugalah.

Fin

Outspoken

2012-01-24T10:19:00.000-08:00

I'm turning eighteen within 4 months. Pheww that's amazing isnt it? how time flies. Time and tide waits for no man including this girl over here *waving hands*. Hmm. Life has been pretty complicated latterly. I received few bad and good news from people around me. Friends come and go but lucky me my best friend did not walk a step away from me. Life has taught me so many things. Ask me what was it , I would say that people change, feelings change, everything in this world is temporary because in life , everything changes. An apologize doesnt matter anymore. Even an 'apology accepted' wasnt really accepted most of the time.

As a normal human being, I commit sins and done uncountable mistakes. But still, I admit it and I seek for forgiveness every now and then. But some people doesnt get the purpose of apologizing. Saying sorry is a noble thing to do. But that doesnt give you any guarantee that the person who asked for your forgiveness wont repeat the mistakes ever again. That's why we need to seek for forgiveness. We're humans, none of us will stop from doing any mistakes. Samalah macam hari raya, every year mesti minta maaf all right ?. Think about it, what if you do it once in your life. Let say you do it when you were five, and never did ask for anyone forgiveness, for sure dosa you dah bertimbun like the Himalaya dah. Am I right ?. See that's the point of meminta maaf.

I can say that I'm unpredictable, sometimes I do things correctly and most of the time I choose the wrong path. I dont know how to react in front of people. I have my own good and bad sides. I'm not a perfect person, so do you. I judged everyone from the very beginning. I know that it was not a good thing to do but eventually my judgement are correct. No I'm not here to brag about anything. You might think that I am, but trust me. I am not. I sometimes blamed myself for being too outspoken. It seems like nowadays, being outspoken is a sin. I believe that it is crucial to speak my mind, even if it upsets people sometimes because I know that the truth hurt and the lies would be more worse. The funny part is whenever I want start a relationship with anyone, I would admit that I'm very straightforward kind of person. Seriously I have to. Hypocrisy is not my thing because being outspoken does not give me the rights to act like that. Telling the truth is what I do best, and sometimes I know there's some people aren't easy with me because of that and might as well get it the wrong way. They say that I fake, I am hypocrite. Okay say whatever you want to. If I am what you say I am, what about you? What makes you became so negative toward others then?

I know, I not a good person. Saya pun ada tak suka orang dan saya tahu ada yang tak suka saya. Eh that's normal right?. Saya bukan malaikat. Saya buat dosa. Saya ada juga mengata orang dan saya tak malu untuk mengaku saya ada buat all those stuff malah kerana itu juga saya seringkali memohon maaf. Saya sedar saya siapa. I screw up in relationship few times before. Lost some friends and met new ones. Cry my eyes out when things stumble. Praying that things would get better and sometimes it happens to be on my side and sometimes it goes another way around. Life was not easy, I'm grateful that though hard times come and go there's still some awesome people who will stick around with me. Allah tu maha adil. Dia tarik few friends of mine away from me, kemudian berikan saya kawan yang lebih ramai. 18 tahun hidup wasn't that long, but the friends I lost. Pheww it was countless. The one who left when I'm having such hard times , my sister cakap

'that is not a friend, that is what you called as a foe'

There you go, such an emotional post. Haha. yeah it is. For me. I thought of writing this for long ago but never had the time to. Thank you for reading. No hard feelings. My intention of writing this post is because I need to share my thoughts, and my experiences in facing people around me. Thats it. I'm changing into a better me. For the sake of myself. If there's anyone who terasa ke apa. I dont think you should. This has nothing to do with you. Even if you do so, I'm sorry. Deeeeeeeply sorry. Peace and Assalamualaikum.

2012-01-21T03:09:00.000-08:00

One of the reason why I still have my facebook account.

2012-01-19T11:32:00.000-08:00

Jam 3.00 pagi waktu tempatan.

Berlegar-legar di blog-blog manusia yang aku tak kenal. Satu pun tak kenal. The only reason why I entered their blogs is just because my sleeping schedule is destroyed by my own self and I've got nothing to do. Life after SPM should be fun as most of SPM leavers told me so. But I guess not every single person will undergo the same thing right?

Oh screw you mosquitoes , Y U BITE ME NOW ?

Itu kita panggil iklan murahan. No seriously apasal tiba-tiba banyak nyamuk ni, am I too sweet? err dont get me wrong, its my blood. Okay let's cut the crap. Hmm balik kepada cerita asal. After reading those blog, I feel completely terrible. Tuhan tu nak biar aku sedar diri agaknya, I found few posts those bloggers wrote about their SPM results. Ya Allah, I am under real pressure.

My thoughts mingled. Memikirkan what would my result be like.
Will I obtain more than what I had achieved during my trial?
If my result is bad, what would happen to me?
Will my family and friends treat me the same way?
Is there any chance that their perception toward me change somehow?

Oh lala kau tengok betapa negatifnya aku. No doubt, I dont have any positive thoughts about my result. It's not like I'm praying for the worst. I just...dont want to get myself hurt at the end of the day. Memang orang cakap, SPM isn't the end of everything. But I'm the youngest in the family, 4 sisters , a brother and a mother who'd raised us all alone by her own self. Pressure tu confirm adalah kan. Semua belajar dah tinggi-tinggi yang bongsu ni je taktahu nak jadi apa. Nak kata I tak berusaha before tu, Oh my dont say that. I did. At least I know I did. Hmm tuhan sajalah yang tahu.

"Ya Allah , kau berikanlah Nur Ilyani Athirah mendapat keputusan yang cemerlang

dalam peperiksaan SPMnya "

2012-01-19T04:57:00.001-08:00

Kadang-kadang orang boleh berjanji. Macam-macam boleh dijanjikan tapi tak semua yang ada dia kabulkan.

"Alah aku janji , lepas ni kalau ada apa-apa problem dengan benda ni , kau contact je aku"

Alahh kalau aku tau benda akan jadi macam ni , aku record sebutir sebutir janji kau dulu tu.

2012-01-19T03:55:00.001-08:00

Hi nama saya Adam Muhammad :)

Sedikit mengenai Twitter

2012-01-16T10:25:00.000-08:00

About twitter. Another most common social networks that causes millions of people around the world had recently being attached with. They called themselves as twitter holic , twitter addict , twitter-cant-live-without and whatnot on their 'about me' section. That is so cliche isnt it ?

Yes I have my own twitter account too. And I bet that most likely you pun ada juga. I started using Twitter few months ago when I bought a Blackberry , this thing comes in handy for internet access especially for Twitter. My point of view changed ever since then. I started to learn that some people can rather be different in both real and virtual life.

Seriously , who would expect the one who being so freaking nice whenever you're around him/her , will say such bad stuff about you on twitter just because you do not owned a Twitter account on your own. Maybe dia rasa dia boleh guna Twitter as a platform untuk luah perasaan terpendam dia tanpa orang yang dikutuk sedar agaknya.

Okay itu kita boleh accept lagilah right ? . But another worst situation comes when that one person kutuk another person just because dia terasa with another person tu punya tweets. Lepas tu penuhlah dengan sesi bantai membantai one another pakai tweets which is agak kurang bijak jugalah sebab orang lain boleh baca. Itu lah sebab jangan never let your feelings out loud in virtual world unless if kau tau that tweet takkan hurt anybody feelings. As saying goes 'Actions speak louder than words' but when it comes to this .. it should be ' Words speak way way louder than actions' . Nak jadikan Twitter tempat mengadu domba ? Ohh boleh , tapi mind your words. Twist twist sikit so that tak adalah orang yang tak ada kena mengena tu terasa.

Lagi satu . Kita kena sedar apa yang kita tulis . Kebarangkalian besar , others will read it in different tones. Contoh macam kau tulis something yang kau rasa lawak but without the 'HAHAHA' sign , people might not know yang kau tengah melawak . Ataupun kau tulis something yang biasa je , tapi orang lain mungkin paham kau menulis dengan nada marah. Get it ?

Haa kalau nak tweet anything tu. Kok ya pun takpayah lah include those dirty words. Yang nak baca tweets kau tu bukan dikalangan porn star , para ahli fikir perkataan lucah , or otak kuning macam kau. Tolonglah , avoid those words. Lagi terbaik bila perempuan tulis macam tu , ish that is a big no no okay ?.

Ada sesetengah orang , dia suka tweet benda mengutuk , tweet benda peribadi , tweet pasal boyfriend girlfriend , tweet pasal ketidakpuasaan hati terhadap hampir semua perkara dll. You know somehow, people will judge you. Tak kesah lah orang cakap ' Never judge a book by its cover ' ke apa ke. The truth is siapa lah dekat dunia ni yang tak menilai orang ?. So when kau keep on kutuk orang 24/7 orang akan imagine you face with a tag bertulis 'kaki kutuk' or orang akan ingat kau sebagai manusia yang rasa dia paling sempurna.

Last but not least , I wrote this post based on my experience , maybe slightly over the top or unacceptable but I just wanted to share this with you and to leave you something to ponder about . And I'm sorry for any wrongdoings , any harsh words , or bad English usage. Yes my english is a little bit rusty. Dan saya mengaku , saya pun tak ada lah baik mana. Segala yang ditulis di atas anggap sebagai pengajaran okay.

Fin.

2012-01-11T10:40:00.000-08:00

Human made mistakes , that is what we all know ever since we were young. I am a human, so I made mistakes. Here is the lists of what I've done. I did not care about my body when I was in my primary and secondary school years. Never even bother to look after my own self and now I am suffering for all of the mistakes I had done to myself back then. Now that I realize, time flies too quick and there is only a couple of months before the SPM result will be announced and not just that, I will be away for a few month for National Service. Ahaa , yess tell me about that. I'm going to be singing that 'wirawati blablabla' song, and doing all those strenuous exercise which I never experience before. Pheewww imagine myself doing all those pumping and wall climbing .okay pengsan. Sigh. Siapa suruh jadi gemuk? siapa suruh tak exercise rajin-rajin dulu?

You're the one to be blame Ilyani , indeed you are .

Fin.

against all odds

2012-01-09T05:34:00.000-08:00

Studies shows that by staying socially active, stress can be reduce. So , does sticking up to your social networking sites through your smartphones , laptop , computer and not to mention staying all night long online can be considered as stress reducer too ?

fin.

2012-01-04T22:28:00.000-08:00

Giving up and moving on are two very different things. – There comes a point when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it’s not giving up, and it’s not the end. It’s a new beginning. It’s realizing, finally, that you don’t need certain people and things and the drama they bring.

Situasi rawak #1

2012-01-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

"Eh nama adik ni apa ?"

"Ohh saya , Ilyani Athirah , panggil Athirah je makcik" sambil buat muka paling kacak pernah ada

"Ohhh Adira" membalas senyuman kacakku dengan penuh ikhlas

"Emm suka hati makciklah" terdetik dalam hati

Komen : Mungkin makcik ni terlalu suka rancangan realiti . Mungkin juga makcik ni peminat Adira AF . Mungkin juga makcik ni rasa aku cantik sangat macam Adira tu . Saya redha .

Redha seredha redhanya makcik :')

2011-12-29T22:44:00.000-08:00

Tell me what's the point of having a number of blogs and each of them were being set as private ?

Do you need a diary as replacement. maybe ?

2011-12-29T02:51:00.000-08:00

Do follow me on Twitter ;)

@IlyaniAthirah

A better life.

2011-12-29T02:48:00.000-08:00

Howdy!

As you know 2012 is comingggg ! :) . I'm excited. Truly I am . Still I know there's so much of new things will happen to me. One of it that really give me a bundle of nerves is waiting for the SPM result. Although it is few months away, still I'm worried !. As what written in my previous post, I was so damn distracted by the memories of me during my SPM examination. What did I answered, how sure I am about the answers and all. Yes I admit it, I'm full with insecurities. That's how I roll.

Something crossed my mind days ago. About me being so worried about all those stuff even after my family and friends kept telling me not to. Miracle happens and yes I'm no longer feeling that way. Usually , at least once a day I will be thinking about it and to make myself feel better, I did lots and lots and lots of things that aren't good for myself, I stuffed myself with foods and drinks. I let food consumed me. I sleep around the clock. I watched too many movies. Termenung banyak semua takpayah cerita lah kan.

Insecurities ! insecurities ! ALERT ALERT

Okay, it wasnt that serious. I ate according to my needs. Just that , I feel bad. Really bad. I knew I need to do something about it. So I did. I found peace through praying. I read inspirational articles, books and such. I learnt that by not leaving your past will not help you, instead it will kills your heart and soul slowly. Lepas itu terfikir, even if I keep on thinking about it. I dont have the power to change the answers pun kan?. All I can do now is to stay calm, be on the positive site and never stop asking from Allah swt. He knows what's the best for me.

Worrying is like a rocking chair

It gives you something to do but doesnt get you anywhere - Anonymous

fin

Burying the hatchet

2011-12-25T06:50:00.000-08:00

Tiap malam sebaik masuk tidur . Dalam jam 12 malam lebih kurang . Cari position sedap nak tidur . Tutup mata . Baca ayat kursi . Zikir sikit . Ingat boleh lelap . Try tidur .

Few minutes later ...

Terbayang apa yang dah dijawab masa SPM hari tu . Semua paper pula tu. Mana tak sakit ? , macam haunted by my own answers . Setiap hari . Kau bayangkanlah . Boleh mati lama-lama tau.

Mungkin ini simptom "sendiri sedar , jawab banyak benda yang kurang pasti jawapannya atau dalam erti kata lain jawab pakai hentam saja "

Dekat sejam lebih macam ni tau .

Akhirnya , on phone kasi layan The Sims 3 . Tengok-tengok terlelap pukul 2 pagi . Ahhhhh sukanya .

How am I suppose to live like this ? Tell me how . Tell me . I beg .

2011-12-22T07:29:00.000-08:00

Currently using MacBook Air . Mannn I fell gawky . Tak pernah guna . Peliks , I mean pelik -_- . Taktahu where is the scrolling button , minimize semua apa tak reti . This is the big sign that the notebook itself wasn't mine :( . Im using my sister's , I couldn't afford this . Haa maybe kena masuk dalam wishlist lagi tak ? mwehehehe

I'm staying at my sister's house for a few days . Tolong jaga Hani and little Adam :) . Adam so cutee , tidur saja , muka time tidur pula nauzubillah comel sangat . Orang kata newborn memang macam tu , tak ada dosa . So tidur aman sentosa . Haa .

Nanti later I'll post more of his photos , till then :) goodbye and assalamualaikum .

2011-12-20T03:38:00.000-08:00

Oh lupa nak cerita. 17 December , masa wedding abang . My eldest sister gave birth . Maka dapatlah seorang nephew . Yeaaayyyy ! . Eh kenapa macam penah type je benda ni . Dejavu or memang dah type ? . Ahhhh lantak .

So last sunday pergilah visit little nephew dekat Prince Court Hospital . Mwehehe . Comel sangat sampai nak pegang pun takut :)

Hani and her little brother

Hi , meet Adam :)

Okay ini over sikit . Hani and Ilyani . Ahaks . Boleh caption macam tu ? -_-

Comel kan Adam :) . Ehehe tengok Auntie dia lah.

Fin.

Baby Storm

2011-12-20T00:06:00.000-08:00

So as you can see from the picture above , that is my phone . My blackberry storm which also known as baby stormy . He's dead . Blackberry doesnt works well to me . Bought it around June and walla ! December dah R.I.P . Buying this phone is one of the biggest regret in my life . To make it even worst , I bought it using my own money . I repeat my own money . My very own freaking moneeeeyyyy . God knows how I felt when this phone crashed . Rasa nak baling pun ada , but on second thought , I'm going to keep it where it belongs . Yes dalam kotak . Wait for another few years , then boleh cerita dekat anak-anak how stupid their mum back then . Ahhh bangga .

Yes , no more BBM , no more twitter on blackberry , no more facebook via blackberry . Tumblr , apa semua . Say goodbye to mummeyh . Laugh out loud .

Lesson learned , think twice before you purchase something pricey . Never buy any electronics from your own friend (trust me it will turn into chaos later on) . DONT BUY ANY BLACKBERRY'S PRODUCT EVER AGAIN .

Tragic gila because few weeks after I bought this phone , keluar pula smartphones yang cool-cool . Ohhh like that la now ? T_T

So since my phone dah mampus . I'm going to make my own wishlist . Who knows right ? Ada anak orang kaya mana nak masuk minang macam video yang famous tu . Alaa pasal kena pinang lepas tu dapat DSLR tu . Haaaa kau jangan nak gatal sangatlah kan , SPM pun terjunam . Lepas ni confirm lah kakak-kakak yang baca blog ni bising report dekat mak . Ehhh haha . Sorry lah , I tak mainlah boyfriend-boyfriend ni , siapa nak pergi jumpa mak kita . Perghhh ayat minta kaki boleh cerita lah .

Mengaruts . Ignore my rusty english and bahasa too . I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry .

Fin.

Cara pakai Turban

2011-12-19T07:06:00.000-08:00

Entri ini dalam Bahasa Melayu . Bukan sepenuhnya mungkin.

Kalau ikut isu semasa sekarang . Kita boleh tengok makin ramai suka ikut fesyen artis . Tak kira lah yang barat atau timur . Mana ikut suka hati je ikut . Paling terbaru , fesyen turban . Aku jujur takpaham kenapa perlu kau pakai stail tu ? . Letak sarang tebuan atas kepala bagai . Aihhhhh , tak gemar teman melihatnya . Hodoh tahu ? . Kan elok kalau pakai tudung biasa je .

Bila pakai turban tu sah lah tengkuk kau terdedah . Boleh cakap lah ada inner bagai . Tapi dah kalau inner tu cantik je salut leher jinjang . Tu dah tak kira tutup aurat dah tu . Bila pakai turban , rambut mesti kena ikat tinggi supaya menjadi stail sarang tebuan tu , ye tak ? Haaa kan tak elok . Islam dah beri garis panduan kata bila pakai tudung , takboleh buat rambut ibarat berbonggol unta . Siapa tak pernah dengar , silalah google . Pandai-pandailah kau nak hidup .

Haa tadi buka YouTube terjumpa satu video baik punya bagi mereka-mereka yang nak pakai turban .

Fin.

2011-12-18T08:06:00.000-08:00

Something about blogging really makes me feel uncomfortable . There's time when I feel like writing so badly and immediately turn the laptop on and a minute later I feel too lazy to type even just a word . It is terrible knowing that your blog is boring enough and no one would read it . Lucky me , having you as my readers . Thank you much . 132 followers isnt a large number to those who probably has thousand followers . But for me , that is more than enough .

Few minutes ago , there is millions words running around in my head and now I'm blank . Maybe its time for me to go .

Fin.

How to survive blogging life #1

2011-12-15T16:08:00.000-08:00

Never put a shoutbox anywhere on your blog .
By doing this you'll not get any extremely rude and nasty comments from your enemies . Never let another person's negativity cloud your own sunshine , you nak blogging pun tak senang nanti .

Until the next post , toodles .

2011-12-13T16:39:00.001-08:00

Trust that schmuck and you're doomed .

2011-12-11T15:35:00.001-08:00

Indeed.

Crushed

2011-12-11T15:19:00.001-08:00

Peoples around me been discussing about SPM lately , some said it was hard (Well I'm with you guys for sure ). But mostly has different thoughts saying it was easy .

I'm having bad times filled with nightmares . Dreamed about those papers I'd answered and yeah it haunts me so badly because I knew I didn't done my best during the examination .

*downcast*

F

2011-12-09T01:43:00.001-08:00

Maybe you've forgotten the friendship we had years ago. Nevermind , I can do the same by just clicking the unfriend button on Facebook.

It's sad for me to lose a friend I had known for years . But to make me feel even more worse , you post a status saying you miss your friends which most of them was in our group but appallingly I was excluded from the list .

It may sound kinda pathetic ,

But yes , I'm feeling deserted .

Real quick

2011-12-08T21:05:00.001-08:00

One day left before Abang's solemnization . Yes . He's getting married tomorrow . Our one and only men in the family . Semua pun tengah busy for the preparation . Insyaallah , I'll post the photos later .

Oh got to go now , kena jaga Hani . Budak yang kena demam campak yang suka peluk-peluk orang . Berjangkit auntie , siap kau nanti Hani.

By the way , I would like to express my gratitude to my new followers ! Thank you for following me :) hehe .

2011-12-05T09:51:00.001-08:00

It's 1.51 in the morning and I could barely sleep. Having mere thoughts of eating late night snack . Too bad , I've been putting a lot of weight currently . Need to cut those fugly fats down a little bit . Esok jogging okay . LOL . Watched She's Out of My League for the 4th times . I just love that movie , you should watch it too . Hehe

Oh my head keeps playing this song , I wonder why ?

I better off to bed now . Goodnight . Hugs and kisses :)

2011-12-05T04:20:00.001-08:00

3pm . Lap cermin , meja , almari kaca and all . Buang sampah . Susun newspaper . Buang segala benda tak guna .

On vacuum . zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Oh there you are !

Yeah dah jumpa memory card .

2011-12-04T16:10:00.001-08:00

It's 8.10 AM . I wide awake , restless and freaking hungry . Didn't even bother to walk downstairs to find some food or perhaps cook some . After SPM ended , proudly admitting that I had turned into a lazy bug . Life after SPM wasnt as great as what I thought it would be but it was okay lah so far . Maybe it is because the whole family is busy preparing for my brother's wedding on December 17 .

I'm not sure what am I going to do after this . Thought of going hiatus for PLKN but 'unfortunately' I did not get the first intake . I might be going for the second or the third . Never mind , i'm still going anyways.

Mum told me I need to stay at my sister's house for a couple of weeks during her confinement . Yeah I'm kinda excited to have a new baby boy in the family . I wonder what it is like to have a nephew . Hewhewhew :D Selama ni ada Hani mok mok jeee ;)

Oh ya , mum did told me that I should be taking my license after the wedding . Haa malas . Serious malas . Should marry a rich guy and hire a driver maybe ? . Laugh out loud .

And semalam paling sedih . I found out that I lost my Blackberry's memory card . It's a 4GB . A number of applications , photos , songs is in there . Dah lah size kecik gila lepas and then tercicir pula . Eeee tu lah careless sangat . Haa tak apalah . Ada hikmah maybe .

Haha lama tak blogging . I seriously felt awkward .

I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry ,I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry , I'm sorry (anwar hadi's style)

Okay goodbye .

Benumbed

2011-12-02T07:34:00.001-08:00

SPM has ended . Alhamdulillah

BUT

Flunked my Biology paper and cried all the way to Jusco .

LOL

SPM

2011-11-06T23:15:00.000-08:00

After weeks been occupied with loads of responsibility as a student . Here am I , I'm back . Well just for this post . hehe

I hereby would like to ask for your apology regarding any wrongdoings I have done to you . Directly or indirectly && Please pray for my success in SPM .

Insyaallah , Nur Ilyani Athirah will scores 9A+ in SPM 2011 .

Thank you . May Allah swt bless you . Assalamualaikum :')

Hey october .

2011-10-02T05:45:00.000-07:00

Hello October .

We meet again this year , all praises to Allah swt . Starting from tomorrow morning , i'll be separated from my fellow classmates according to our performance based on SPM trial result . Cemerlang , Sederhana or Harap lulus . Non of the groups suits me well . I've done badly for my trials . Shame on me .

Scored most paper 1 with 30++ over 50 question , and fail utterly for every paper 3 . Currently waiting for paper 2 marks for all pure science subjects . I'm totally sick of waiting , I dont feel like studying for this current moment . Maybe after getting all of my results , the situation might change for the better .

46 days to go .

and

I'm overwhelmed with misery . That's it .

2011-09-29T05:11:00.000-07:00

I'm having severe depression due to SPM trial results that I attained . All I can say is that I've done the best . As luck would have it , I had not scored such marks that I could be proud much .

So yeah . fail to try never try to fail :')

Let me in , once again please.

2011-09-29T05:05:00.000-07:00

You stole my best friend .

Fin.

PLKN

2011-09-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

PLKN
Isi borang sudah . Tinggal belum tahu bila kena pergi dan kemana nak dicampak je . Paling menyirap menganggur serta mengoren bila ada manusia menganjing dekat Facebook kata kesian siapa yang pergi PLKN sebab tak boleh enjoy lepas SPM

Untunglah engkau takpayah pergi . Untunglah.... untunglah... dapat pergi duduk rumah membesarkan perut dan pungkok kan . Dapat tidur lambat malam-malam . Dapat menganjing sinisana tatkala aku menangis dalam tandas nak balik rindu mak aku .

Aku tengah semangat nak pergi PLKN ni . Kau jangan runtuhkan semangat yang tengah kobar-kobar ni .

Jangan sampai aku cari orang dalam minta kau dapat third intake pula

Fin.

things i hated the most in life

2011-09-17T10:19:00.000-07:00

when you make a stupid moves and you just cant seemed to find a way to change it

when the person who you thought were the nicest human being on earth was actually an evil tyrant

when you wasted your time just to think about someone but the person itself doesnt even give damn about you

when someone ruthlessly hurt your loved ones

when you done good deeds toward others and you're the last one to be remembered

when it's 1.15 am in the morning and you'd no idea what to do with yourself and you ended up playing the sims on facebook , reading others tweets and wasting you time rather than studying

oh and when SPM is just around the corner and you dont even know what is the meaning of oxidation and reduction

its a wrap . goodbye .

Wajib Tengok

2011-09-09T06:01:00.000-07:00

Dah lama follow blog ni . Suka baca . Lagi-lagi masa nak cari bahan ketawa . Tak pun tengah bosan-bosan ke kan . Sila lah pergi .

Faiz Tapit

entry terbaik dia , lagi wajib baca .

Pandai-pandai lah klik .

Bunga Api and Mercun

2011-08-26T07:05:00.000-07:00

I prefer not to burn my money away just like that . In fact , it wasnt suppose to be named as my money since the person who'd work hard enough to earn it was my mom .

So yeah , neighbors stop annoy me persistently please . If let say you're desperately in need of wasting such amount of money , make sure you sealed your mouth first and stop making any nuisance around this area . Thank you .

quick ones

2011-08-23T06:00:00.000-07:00

8.58 p.m

Here am I right now . Sitting on the sofa . Enjoying the serene and the air I breathe while playing The Sims Social on Facebook .

Nice one Ilyani . Give the little lady a great big hand ! . Another 12 days left before the SPM's trials and you're still having fun . Hehe .

I'll update later , a post with raya pictures :) No , tak raya this year . SPM kan . heh .
Oh by the way , do follow me at twitter . Search @IlyaniAthirah :)

Till then ! Goodbye .

Tabah

2011-08-13T12:14:00.000-07:00

Selalu dengar/baca ayat ni tak ? Stay Strong ? .

Stay strong bukan makna suruh kau jadi macam The Ordinary Family , Spiderman , Wonderwoman atau apa sekalipun lah kan . Stay strong dari segi emosi . Pergh gila cakap pasal stay strong ni . Padahal diri sendiri pun cukup lemah . Pantang kena jentik sikit hujan membasahi wajah penuh parut jerawat ni . Watlek .

Bagi aku . Nak jadi kuat ni susah , macam-macam perkara kau kena ada dalam diri kau . Elemen penting tak cukup bilangan , kau boleh mimpi lah nak jadi kuat . Manusia ni senang jadi lemah , hati terusik sikit habislah terganggu segala sistem badan . Eh betul , serious . Kau cuba tengok perempuan . Bila tengah under intense pressure habis segala hormon berubah , kuat marah , menangis sebolehnya dan jadi pendiam itu tak asing lagi . Tapi takpayah tengok perempuan semata-mata , lelaki pun sama . T_T

Kalau jumpa orang terdekat yang baru hadapi masalah jiwa atau tekanan terlampau dan masih boleh tersenyum dan masih bernafas hari ni ,
patut ambil contoh manusia macam tu sebab bukan senang nak jadi kuat .

Tak percaya ? kau cuba jatuh , lepas tu bangun semula tanpa sebarang penyesalan dalam hati . Nanti barulah faham .

what hurts the most

2011-08-13T10:52:00.000-07:00

Truth be told , I miss you so badly .
I miss you text , I miss your smile , I miss your voice , I miss everything about you .

Truth be told , that was weeks ago .

Now , there's no more you . You're just another piece of crap and totally such pain in the arse .

someone like you

2011-08-13T03:46:00.000-07:00

Just now , I sent a post saying i miss you to one of my used-to-be-bestfriend through his facebook . We were so close back then , until. He moved into another school soon after he scored well in his PMR . Well , actually he's not the only one I'm missing so badly right now . There are some other names and faces I've been busy picturing them in my head for the past few months of my life .

He replied my wall post. Wow , that considered as lucky . But the saddest thing was , he changed . He's no longer the one I knew before . Clearly visible , all the years spend together and all the laughter we shared , means nothing to him anymore .

Now at this moment . I realized , the phrase friends forever are never for real :'(

And .

It's a life cycle , the person you loved will come and go .

2011-08-07T03:12:00.000-07:00

Looking back at we put through together for the past few weeks . All that I can say is , you're a history and i'm in misery .

Mannnn you sucks big times !

2011-08-04T07:06:00.000-07:00

A week has passed by . Enough with my blackberry ( i named it as my berry stormy ) , it's been working smoothly for the past few days . Praise to Allah . Another 30 days before SPM trials . As one of the spm candidates , all I can say is .. I'm not ready , maybe at least until 2 days before where there's nothing for me to do left rather than cry my heart out with total regret .

Nahh not gonna let that happens .

Goodbye people.

blackberry storm

2011-07-23T06:53:00.000-07:00

I did some mistakes for the past few weeks . One of it was , buying a new phone . Yes , i brought a new smartphones . For a person who merely prefers a normal phone instead of super high tech gadgets , it is a hard decision to make . Yeah seriously I had to think through it entirely . Listing all the pros and cons doesnt really help since the desire and inevitable temptation to own a new phone is out of control .

I chose Blackberry Storm . Sleek , super hot , super sexy. Super high definition display.

After few weeks.................

Damn you . Hang kuat . Pergi mampus aku campak kau kat laut lagi baik . Duit aku terbang macam tu je , thanks

2011-07-23T06:44:00.000-07:00

Aku buka blogger setiap hari . Bila nak post sesuatu . Rasa pelik aneh bercampur baur dek kerana terbiasa menulis dalam bahasa inggeris . Sungguh aku cakap , kebolehan aku menulis dalam bahasa inggeris lemah. Itu belum dipersoalkan hal bercakap dalam bahasa asing tu. Lagilah , terbelit lidah mungkin boleh .

Menulis dalam bahasa inggeris seronok . Cubalah , baru tau kebodohan grammar sendiri.

Tidurlah sayang

2011-07-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

Ada satu perasaan bila kita bangun .
Samada suka , duka , atau rasa nak tidur semula.
Tapi pagi tadi bila aku bangun .
Aku baru sedar spm kalau dihitung ada kurang dari 100 hari .

Lempang diri sendiri pun tak ada guna.
Silap diri sendiri baru nak bangun dari lamunan hidup .

Selamat kembali kepada realiti ilyani.

Budaya Sentap

2011-07-22T06:59:00.000-07:00

EH bila nak habis SPM ni ? tak sabar dah nak pergi PLKN ni . #ahh excited habis ni .

Seronoknyaaaa dapat pergi PLKN 2-3 bulan bercuti dengan senapang macam gampang tu .

Dapat makan free ye dak ? Boleh jadi makin gemuk macam hippo tmnet tu waaaahhhh sukaanyaa titeeww .

Lepas tu boleh dapat free tanning ! wahhh tak sabarnyaaaa . Balik mesti mak bangga anak dia jadi orang negro .

Semoga tuhan merahmati manusia yang pilih nama aku masuk list plkn *&$!@#%^$%&()^%$!

SPM

2011-07-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

Just when you think you done your best in life .

Something came out and turned it all back around .

You find yourself walking to the wrong side of the road .

Eventually , you have to start over again . Repeating the same old thing all over again .
From A to B.

dreams are for fools

2011-07-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

How can you give your heart so easily . You messed up once again . Congratulations . Just when you think you made a great decision in your life , you did the same thing that is throwing yourself into a hole full with troubles all around . Now , you're busy trying to find the way to dig yourself out from there .

Nevermind . Here's a lesson for you to learn .
"Feelings can grow but they can go away to."

So long goodbye .

Truth

2011-07-16T07:25:00.001-07:00

It's either kau mati kena bunuh or kau bunuh diri .

Choose.

Love is in the air

2011-07-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

I made a huge decision last monday . I know it will leave such impact on my life . Yahh . Its the risk that I have to endure that making me want to take one step forward in this life . It doesnt matter anymore , I just want to live this life of mine to the fullest . I know there's some hearts that I might just hurt , and truly I feel sorry for you people . I just want to be happy . Please . Let me . Thank you .

Kenapa aku?

2011-07-13T07:08:00.001-07:00

Juta juta manusia . Kenapa aku yang kena pergi PLKN ?

a request

2011-07-08T08:55:00.000-07:00

Stop spreading hatred everywhere . You might not want to cause such disturbance on someone else relationship . That totally was a misdeed that will end up leaving sudden great damage to anyone . Whenever you talk about others , ask yourself whether every words that comes out from you mouth are the real ones , not just a title-tattle that are not confirmed as being true . And when you do realized that you're making a mistakes , just stop doing it . You dont know how many lives you just save by controlling yourself from saying such unnecessary talking .

Thank you .

This message was brought to you by ,

ilyani athirah .

Berita terkini

2011-07-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Blog ni menyedihkan sungguh . Had been neglected for such a long time . Tak long mana pun , a couple of weeks je T_T . 3 minggu tak silap . Maaflah. Saya sibuk periksa dan belajar dan belajar dan belajar . Okay itu bohong sebab belajar sekali je mana lah ilyani athirah ni rajin nak belajar 24/7 .

okay . itu sahaja buat kali ini . sehingga bertemu di waktu dan hari yang lain yang taktahu bila . Allah swt izinkan kekangan waktu nak update , maka akan update lah . #mood skema

Assalamualaikum .

2011-06-12T00:35:00.001-07:00

see you again .
goodbye .

good question

2011-06-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

Hey its me again .
Something been in my head for the past few days .
I wonder why do people want to be in a relationship ,
why would you give your heart away so easily ,
and all you get back in return is getting hurt in the end of the day ?.

I wonder why ....

2011-06-10T04:32:00.000-07:00

Haa boleh tahan . Boleh tahan comel :D

Sincerely , me.

2011-06-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

Hey . Its been a tough day today . As you can read through my previous post , i'm having a severe gum-ache for the whole entire week . Even it does leave such a huge pain on me , and even I cried now and again , I am facing this patiently because I know Allah swt is giving a test . I prayed he would forgive my mistakes that I've made in my life . Allah swt is almighty .

Another few days and the second semester of school comes in . I admit , I haven't finish all my homeworks yet , despite the fact that I love holiday so much , still I misses school so much . I miss my friends , I miss my teachers , I miss my table , my class , I miss to be able to study at school and one thing for sure , I miss sleeping in the class . Hee .

Faris gone back to Rembau already . Shit . I miss him so much . I have nothing to do with him , really I dont . He's just a friend , a friend who somehow are the opposite side and a friend who no matter how he annoys me everytime , I just couldnt bear put up a fight with. I'd been used to have him sending me sms almost everyday during this school holiday and now when he's gone , it just felt wrong . Something is incomplete . I met him yesterday for the very first time , and now I still remembers everything he did said to me , the way he talked to me , the way he walked , the way he laughed , the way he make fun of me. Oh god , why am I typing like this ?. Readers , dont get me wrong , he's a good friend of mine . I would never fall for a good friend like him .

Okay now dah mula geli dengan diri sendiri . Ahh nevermind . He wont read that anyway . Creepy crap .

A few days ago , I accidentally told someone about my feelings towards him and up until now I'm overwhelmed with such hugeeee embarrassment . I shall insert his name here as , Bee . Hahah . That is because he's scared of bees . How cute is that . Okay that's enough ilyani . Eww . Stop being so ridiculous . He doesn't give a damn about me pun actually . Hee its okay . I dont mind .

In a few weeks , i'll be sitting for spm . I dont think i'll be ready at all . Try ask me the same questions a few days before spm , I sure going to answer the same thing . I got two weeks of holiday in my hands , but I didnt spent it wisely . I slept for a very loooooong hours . And I spent most of my time doing all those homeworks that even at this moment , wasn't fully complete yet . I did not study . I know I should , but seriously I dont have time for that . You may think that I'm giving too much excuses , but no. I am not . I'm just telling the truth .

Isnt this post is quite long ? . Hee , sorry if this bother you . Till the next post , goodbye people . xx.

oh happy day .

2011-06-07T11:06:00.000-07:00

Today keluar lunch date dengan girlfriends saya , Amanda dan Huda. Kemudian dapat panggilan dari jambu . Kata nak jumpa . Jadi jumpalah . Oh jambu itu Faris . Haha .

Punyalah saya pandai , kamera dalam handbag tapi sempat ambil gambar Huda dan Amanda sahaja . Gambar Faris lupa sudah . Haha melepas ler kau jambuuuu . Baru nak market dekat blog superstar ni . HAHAHHAHAHA

Kbye . esok post gambar . Kbye

burn someone in effigy

2011-06-07T08:48:00.000-07:00

Listening to : I Will Survive by Cake

7/6/2011
Half of my heart died instantly today . Thank you , so called as friend .

2011-06-07T04:29:00.001-07:00

“Ya Allah, saya memohonkan pilihan menurut pengetahuanMu dan memohonkan penetapan dengan kesuasaanMu juga saya memohonkan kurniaMu yang besar, sebab sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui dan saya tidak mengetahui apa-apa. Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala yang ghaib. Ya Allah, jikalau di dalam ilmuMu bahawa urusan saya ini……..baik untukku dalam agamaku, kehidupanku serta akibat urusanku, maka takdirkanlah untukku dan mudahkanlah serta berikanlah berkah kepadaku di dalamnya. Sebaliknya jikala di dalam ilmumu bahawa urusan ini buruk untukku, dalam agamaku, kehidupan serta akibat urusanku, maka jauhkanlah hal itu daripadaku dan jauhkanlah aku daripadanya serta takdirkanlah untukku yang baik-baik saja dimana saja adanya, kemudian puaskanlah hatiku dengan takdirMu itu.”

Turn my sorrow into treasure gold

2011-06-06T00:46:00.000-07:00

Im having a very nice day today . I woke up at noon . I bathed . I perform my solah . I ate fried kuey teow that my mum cooked for me . I watched disney channel for a couple of minutes . Yes I still enjoy watching cartoon . And now here am I , with iPod earphone plugged into my ear , my mouth uttering One Republic latest song entitled Good Life . Next track : Get To You by James Morrison .

Have a nice day people .

wisdom tooth

2011-06-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

Ada budak menangis masa turun tangga . Nama dia Ilyani Athirah . Gigi dia sakit . Gigi bongsu nak tumbuh . Pipi bengkak sebelah . Kakak dia macam err err pergi cakap dia sorok buah anggur dalam mulut . Lepastu dia marah dia kata , " janganlah nangis , Normal lah gigi tumbuh " . Lepas tu Ilyani Athirah gaduh dengan dia , lawan balik cakap . Ilyani kata ,"orang lain lain la . Sakit pun lain lain la " .

Paling terbaik , Ilyani Athirah kan . Dia kan . Dia macam bijak hari ni . Dia telan 2 biji ubat tahan sakit . 2 biji ubat tahan sakit . 1 biji antibiotik . 1 biji ubat selsema . Padahal semua dos patutnya sebiji je . Tadi dia dah rancang nak minum satu botol listerine .

YEAAAAAYYYYY . Ada orang nak mati awal . kbye

Toothache

2011-06-04T22:30:00.000-07:00

I'm growing a new tooth. HAHAHAHA . I only knew that even at the age of 17 , a human can still grow another tooth . *giggles* . My god . Why am so lame at certain things (?)(!) . Isn't it a common sense ? Why laaa , why laa .. why yu so sillyyyy one ?. Ketawa-ketawa juga . Im feeling so much pain. Oi new tooth , make sure you grow healthily , penat I tahan sakit tau . Berapa biji pain killer dah ku telan .

describable .

2011-06-04T05:17:00.000-07:00

I am so happy . No ordinary words can describes my feelings now . Haha crap . crap . Shoot myself right in the head . I got tons of homeworks that haven't been touch yet . And now im playing Restaurant City . Yeay . Nice one Ilyani . You better offline now miss . IM SHOOOO HAPPPPPPPYYYYYY (!) okay that's enough .

Still , didnt know why i turned into such a happy person .

Dear john doe

2011-06-02T23:52:00.000-07:00

Man , You're such a lucky person .
Born and raised in a good family .
Given every single thing you asked for .
Blessed with such handsome face .
Sadly ,

You're just another piece of crap .

Sincerely ,

PJ.

2011-06-01T08:28:00.000-07:00

Sudden . Backpain . Is . Killing . Me . Softly .
Oh . Allah .Please . Forgive . Me .

Hey Jude

2011-06-01T08:21:00.000-07:00

I can feel something is not right with me . Maybe somehow I acquired realization . A good one that for sure . Things wasn't easy as it happens once before . Need to have a quick reality check . June has finally arrived && July's coming . Please stay astray for a moment , would you July ? and please stay a little bit longer June . Please .

Maybe it wasn't July , maybe it's me .

Current thoughts

2011-06-01T00:41:00.000-07:00

"Being jealous makes you unhappy. It makes you bitter, miserable and irrational."

You are what you eat

2011-05-31T07:38:00.000-07:00

Scroll down a bit . Read my previous post about me being ultra moody all the way through the post .

After doing some thinking , research and some reading . Now I know the reason why .

And yes . This is why , why I turned into a monster . Moody tak pasal-pasal . It is not that im craving for this now. no . I ate this yesterday , spicy chicken mcdeluxe , large meal. Shit . I repeat . LARGE .

Ever heard the phrase 'you are what you eat' ?

Dah lama tak makan McD actually , fast food kan . Yes that's the kind of food i've been avoiding for the past few months . Ms. Aisyah , my chemistry teacher told me not to consumed any fast food for the sake of myself who going to sit for SPM this year . She told that bila kita drink any carbonated drinks or eat any fast food , our brain wont work out as good as it can be . Somehow macam cannot perform at the best rate lah .

At first macam , terfikir juga how does it effect me if I just makan main balun je everything . So bila teringat what happen to me yesterday , baru faham . Seriously you guys , fast food aren't good for our body . Tulah bila dah lama tak makan , then pergi makan semalam . Badan rasa lembab , malas , dan selebet . hahaha .Apa nak buat pun tak jadi .

So tadi , pergi cuci toilet . Brushed all the germs, stains and dirt away , aku sental guna tangan tau , dah macam bibik dah . Buat sauna dalam toilet tadi . Berpeluh-peluh . Best .Seriously best , rasa tak semput sangat. Then kemas bilik pula . I did this all today to pay back apa yang telah dibantai semalam . Ada lah kut burned few calories . Esok aku nak kemas bilik lagi .

So renung-renungkan , and selamat malam ! assalamualaikum :)

Cemburu

2011-05-30T21:34:00.000-07:00

Kekadang terfikir . Cemburu tengok orang ada DSLR besar-besar . Harga ribu-ribu . Kalau dekat sekolah aku . Siapa bawa benda alah tu , mesti dilabel kaya. Aku tak ada pun . Tapi takat menumpang camera orang lain je ah -_- . Den tak mampu

Ada yang kekadang begitu passionate pasal fotografi .. Sanggup berhabis pergi seminar pasal photography semua . Agak menarik lah juga ada orang nak buat macam tu . Kalau aku ada dslr pun kebarangkalian besar aku akan attend jugak . Itu bukan masalah aku lah yang pasti . Itu masalah mereka . Duit mereka . Lantak lah..

Tapi baguslah pergi class atau belajar cara nak guna apa bagai tu semua daripada kau mendongak dagu mengangkat muka berjalan penuh bangga memegang camera penuh speedlight , lens sepanjang-panjang alam tapi gambar kau tetap sama kualiti dengan camera 1.3mp .

Haa. Apa yang penting ? .Ya . Sedar diri . Tak reti buat macam tak reti . Tak mampu buatlah cara tak mampu . Sekian sekian .

2011-05-30T09:24:00.000-07:00

Aku tanya kau baik baik .
Kau jawab macam nak memohon tapak kaki aku je .

Sebab aku pemurah sekarang ni .

Nah kaki .

berubah

2011-05-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

Apa jadi dengan aku kebelakangan ni pun aku tak pasti . Tahap kemalasan aku memang menuju kepuncak . Kalah akademi fantasia punya lagu tema .

Aku buka buku . Dua muka surat sudah cukup buat aku rasa loya . Rasa nak aku rabakkan je buku tu . Hancurkan cebis-cebis . Lepastu telan . Takpun bagi anak jiran depan ni makan .

Orang sms aku . Nanti mesti aku mengamuk tak tentu pasal dengan orang tu . Lantaklah kau . Terima je . Jujur mengaku ni , aku kuat marah sekarang . Kadang-kadang siapa cari pasal dengan aku . Habis nama kau kena sumpah seranah dalam hati aku .

Makan ?. Tak macam dulu . Dulu aku suka makan . Sekarang pun suka lagi . Tapi tak macam dulu . Entah lah.

Semua macam tak kena je sekarang ni . Internal enviroment berubah barangkali . hm .

Terlebih rajin

2011-05-29T06:32:00.001-07:00

It's Teacher's Day

2011-05-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

Teacher's day celebration day for SMK Seri Bintang Selatan take place today at the auditorium .
Pictures will be updated soon .

Random status

2011-05-26T06:20:00.000-07:00

I'm having stomachache .
Oh. my. god .

Vain Fantasy

2011-05-26T01:46:00.000-07:00

Hello anonymous ,

It's Thursday . Another one day of school and pooofs! Hello holiday :) ! . Here comes the days I've been eagerly waiting . Where I can hop on bed late at night , and wake up the next day at noon . Stay at home alone . Conquer the tv all by myself . Spend the rest of the day in front of the laptop , get my hands on Adobe Photoshop and begin designing new artworks . Fuuuuu what a bliss right .

Uh-Hm! Hello there ! Wake up Ilyani , back to the reality please .

Well at least till Pn. N announced that all form 5's students will provided with holiday assignment , I actually dreamed of doing that .

My god . High school life is killing me softly . Indeed , even though I received a hatful of homeworks I couldn't disagree more that it wont help for my studies . Overall I have homeworks from each subject im taking for SPM that is 9 to be exact . Sigh . Seriously , I can lost my mind anytime . But not now . Hehe . Let me finish typing first okay ? . Sembilan pun sembilan lah . Tu belum mention what the tasks are . Boleh mati nak type everything here .

So the conclusion is . All those plans I made before , need to be move out of my sight , mind and heart . Tu semua kena bury alive . Terbatal sudah nawaitu ku . God , help me please . Turn me into someone who fairly lebih rajin . Can ah ? hehe .
Kbye . Assalamualaikum .

Lots of love ,

undiscovered .

2011-05-25T06:56:00.000-07:00

Current status :
Am currently having an eye for someone. kehkehkeh .

Darren Criss

♥

Header Design

2011-05-25T01:02:00.000-07:00

Made a new header , after a long period of time .
Yeap .
It's kinda boring .
Takpa , as long as i'm happy . Nothing can get through me .
Goodbye :)

goodbye apathy

2011-05-24T08:15:00.000-07:00

#1
Kadang-kadang , kita selalu tegur someone tu dekat facebook . Yes dia tegur kita balik . But when kita nak dia tegur kita . Dia tak tegur .

#2
Kadang-kadang kita pergi profile dia . Cadangnya nak tengok sekejap je . Alih-alih terbawa-bawa sampai ke previous week post dia pun kita terbaca T_T

#3
Kadang-kadang, walaupun kita tahu dia dah in relationship . Gambar dia dengan girlfriend dia kita rasa macam nak bakar je. " kita bako je , kita bako " kata usop .

#4
Hm . Apa lagi ?. Tu je . kbye .

DONE

2011-05-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

I so hungry at this moment . I can even devour a human right now .

Proudly announcing that .

EXAMS OVER !
goodbye books . see you in a couple of days . Am dumping you for awhile . Will be spending hours of my precious time with you honey .

hugs and kisses ,

hey monday

2011-05-22T04:08:00.000-07:00

For some reason , I sometimes wished that I could be invisible . only AT TIMES . Life has been quite a burden for the past few days . No , am not going to mourn here . No worries . Hmm , Another paper awaits me , that is Physics paper 3 . And the best part was , it's going to be tomorrow . GRINS .Haven't studied anything yet. I spent my whole weekend on Angry Birds and Restaurant City . How coolzz is that ? . I even watched TV for 6 hours non stop . Imma couch potato you see. School holiday is coming , and to be honest , I prefer not to plan anything this time. Because I know I wont do it according to my plans though.

After survived through the harsh weeks , all those butt cramps , sitting for hours on a freaking plastic chair , and answering heap stacks of test papers , I think I shall spend this upcoming holiday with awesome things to do with . Let see, what if I tell my mum about it? I know she would say this

You need to stay at home and study . SPM is just around the corner .

Undeniably , 173 days to go before SPM say hi! to me .
Fuhhhhhhhhhhh .

Sincerely ,

easily distracted

2011-05-18T01:25:00.000-07:00

Ini bahan bukti .

Aku sampai rumah pukul 2.30 ptg .
Nampak laptop on . Aku pun online facebook .
Chat dengan Pakcik sorang tu kejap .
Tak lama lepas tu , jam 3 ptg . Aku beritahu dia aku nak mandi .
Jadi aku pun offline .

Dalam perjalanan nak ke tangga menuju ke tingkat atas , aku nampak kakak didapur.
Aku berubah fikiran . Aku beritahu dia , "wei kejut aku pukul 4" "nak tidur kejap je".
Aku patah balik pergi ruang tamu.
Baring atas sofa .
Tiba-tiba tak terasa nak tidur .
Aku pun on tv.
Konon nak tengok sampai pukul 3.30 je .
Tiba-tiba aku tengok jam dah pukul 4.30 .
Sekarang aku taktau nak buat apa .
Rancangan nak ulangkaji addmaths dah tertimbus ditengah jalan .

Kan aku dah kata . Aku ni cepat hilang focus . Easily distracted by silly unimportant things .
Tu je nak beritahu . Bye

#1

2011-05-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

Whatever happens to you ,
and
Doesn't matter whoever hurts you ,
or
When things turns out wrongly ,
just
Learn how to FORGET AND FORGIVE.

I learnt that today . The most crucial things for us to learn is how to forget and forgive . Eventhough , some might say that , to forgive... duhh that an easy task to do . But to forget , thats another tough challenge . Try to forget and forgive others first , then you'll know how it good it feels like .

Assamualaikum :)

breath taking moment

2011-05-15T05:41:00.000-07:00

There are certain times ,

Aku rasa nak bukak tingkap ,
lepas tu jerit ....

kau mengidam makan kasut size 7 ke ?

duduk dalam rumah diam-diam please budak-budak rumah belakang
saya nak study disulami suasana penuh tenang harmoni sambil dengar cengkerik mengerik .
kbye .

taken aback

2011-05-14T05:37:00.000-07:00

I'll leave you here
And wont ever look back
Never feel sorry for anything
Remember every moment ,

It's a new beginning .

its my birthday

2011-05-11T07:48:00.000-07:00

This gonna be a quick post .

Thank you for those who been wishing me through facebook .
Thank you to fellow 5 Damar's who had been so sweet by singing happy birthday song to me few minutes before the exam starts .
Thank you dear good friends who apparently messaged me early this morning .
Thank you Atiqah for the super cute cake
Thank you everyone .

You know who you are :) . I wouldnt forget each and everyone of you peoples :) .

Plain Jane

2011-05-09T07:55:00.000-07:00

Mak kita so cute .
She often asked me how was my day at school .
Everyday , tak kira whether she fetch me at school atau dekat rumah .

Mesti tanya what did I do at school during the day . And I answered most of the time , tapi sometimes kalau tengah moody macam harem . Jawab sikit-sikit je .

Mak kita always asked , did anyone bullied me at school ? . Huhu no lah . Tak ada lah exactly macam tu .
Dia tau I had this problem with a guy at class . So dia selalu tanya . (pretty boy , note this okay sayang . Mama kita pun sayang awak tau )

Mak kita tanya what did I do when he kutuk me behind my back . I cakap senang je ,

I just smiled at him and acted like nothing happens between us .

She asked , why panggil dia pretty boy . Handsome sangatkah ?

I called him that way so that tuhan tak marah saya . I didnt call him in such bad words , like he did to me .

Isn't it a blessing in disguise ? .
Assalamualaikum .

feeling fat

2011-05-08T04:48:00.000-07:00

Note the title , feeling fat .
Why should I ? I am fat . Have been used to it . BAHAH .

Its mother's day today . Doesn't feels like wishing my mum here . She wont read it though.
My sister came here to our house with Baskin Robbins ice cream cake along with her .
We called for PHD for pizza . Oh did you realized that Pizza Hut's had changed into PHD . Okay apa-apalah .

And now , i'm feeling fat . Gemuk .
Makan banyak .
And were so jakuns by the dry ice provided inside the cake box .
Asap-asap putih keluar and when you touch it , it dries instantly ! how coolzzz is that ?
Wei hidup dah 16 tahun 11 bulan still jakun over dry ice ke wei ? . haha .

Esok exam , and I macam tak study apa pun . SO LAZY lah these days . Makan tidur je .
Okay dah la . Bye

toss and turn

2011-05-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

Here's a quick updates ,

Will be sitting for mid-term examinations starting tomorrow with History as the first paper .
Were so 'lucky' to get the chance to sit next to my 'dearest classmate" , the one I loved the most . But I chose to switch places with someone else so that he wont commit sins by cursing me for the whole 3 weeks in a row . Iloveyousomuchprettyboy , yes your bigfoot loves you so much . Note that sweetheart . You might wanna let the dead bury the dead . Take that as a real slap in the face
Am so disappointed with myself for not be able to memorize thing as good as a normal human could ever be . sigh .
Aren't fully ready to answers any paper . Study tak , how can I ?
Are somehow worried about myself when I saw the seniors wrote on facebook's news feed regarding theirs UPU result .

Bye Luminescence . I'm on hiatus .
Exam mode : ON

forgiveness

2011-05-03T04:50:00.000-07:00

Bila ada orang minta maaf dengan kita . Lagi-lagi daripada orang yang kita dah lama teringin nak tengok dia minta maaf dengan kita . Ada beberapa perasaan yang kita akan rasa .

Dan salah satu yang aku rasa sekarang .

Kau nak jilat ludah kau balik ke ?

Hahahahahaha . Walaupun aku ketawa macam evil character . Aku dah maafkan kau . Setiap kali sebelum tidur aku dah maafkan kau .

2011-05-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

At least I know , I'm not the only one who is broken
- you and I by secondhand serenade

major headache , and a minor heartbreak plus exceeded studying time.
fuhhhhhhh say hello to bed . say goodbye to books .

Tekanan

2011-04-30T08:37:00.000-07:00

Pernah tak rasa macam kau dah study banyak sangat benda and kepala kau berat gila macam nak pecah ?

Lepas tu kan kau rasa macam kau bagus sebab kau rasa kau dah study banyak gila benda .

Tiba-tiba kan sebelum kau tidur kau fikir balik apa yang kau dah belajar hari tu rupa-rupanya sikit je .

Masa tu kan baru kau sedar kau sakit kepala bukan sebab kau banyak study , kau banyak tidur rupanya .

Tapi kan sebenarnya kau study tau . Tapi tak semua masuk dalam kepala .

Haa kau pun apa lagi . Sumpah seranah lah diri sendiri . Lepas tu menangis sambil dengar lagu Maher Zain Haaaa macam tu lah baru betul .

Sebenarnya kan , 'kau' tu refer dekat tuan punya blog ni .

kau kuatkan lah hati nur ilyani athirah untuk menimba ilmu ya allah,

kau kurniakanlah dia 9A+ dalam keputusan SPM nya ,

amin ya rabbal-alamin.

:'(

current wallpaper

2011-04-30T03:41:00.000-07:00

I found this while busy tumbr-ing just now. Took it from a tumblr that contains a lot of islamic quotes , forgive me who didnt copied the URL of the site . To be honest , I was so touched when I saw this photo and quickly save it and then set it as my new wallpaper .

2011-04-30T00:02:00.001-07:00